SEXUAL SIN: THE BATTLE / THE VICTORY

When I was asked to write a brief testimony of how God has truly set me free from the bondage that held me captive, the following scripture came to my mind after much prayer and meditation:

Revelation 12:10-12 "Now is come salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of his Christ: for the accuser of our brethren (Satan) is cast down, which accused them before our God day and night. And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death. Therefore rejoice, ye heavens, and ye that dwell in them. Woe to the inhabiters of the earth and of the sea! For the devil is come down unto you, having great wrath, because he knoweth that he hath but a short time."

We are living in times where confusion, chaos and sexual sin in every form, is rampant. Time is running out for Satan, who's primary objective is to steal, kill and destroy everything God promises us in His Word.

As a young girl, growing up in a small town 30-35 years ago, I never dreamed I would be snared by the world's evil nature like I was. Things that seemed harmless then, over time, proved to be seeds planted by the evil one to destroy my life.

My heart's passion is to share my story, as briefly as I can, and to encourage others who may be struggling with issues in the area of sexual sin. Jesus indeed came "to set the captives free", and my prayer is that you diligently seek The Lord in this matter; because His Word says HE WILL ANSWER YOU! Believe it! He really does.

I praise God for Pastor Marc LaMour, his family, his church family and their ministry on behalf of the lost, broken, and demonically oppressed. We are ALL God's children! The Bible says in II Peter 3:9, The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance." Thanks to their obedience to the FULL gospel of The Lord Jesus Christ, they continue to pursue the area of healing and deliverance when the Body of Christ, as a whole, will not.

I am not just saved, but spiritually free, today, from demonic bondages, happily married and serving God with all my heart, with all of my mind and all my strength!

My prayer and desire for you is to accept and receive the Blood of Jesus in your situation and surrender everything to Him. He will wipe your slate clean. II Timothy 3:16,17 says, "All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness: that the man of God may be perfect, thoroughly furnished unto all good works." You must believe this. You can't pick and choose the scriptures that fit your fleshly desires. He gave us His Holy Spirit to empower us to live according to His complete Word. THANK YOU JESUS!

Here's how the enemy worked in my life. When I was 12, my parents hired a 16-year old, male babysitter, who was a friend of the family, to stay with me and my siblings on New Year's Eve. He threatened to hurt my younger sisters and brother if I didn't, "play his games." I was afraid and gave in to almost all he demanded. I praise the Lord for having just asked Jesus into my heart, and being baptized; because I asked Jesus to help me and I believe that He did to get me through that night without extreme trauma. FIRST ENEMY SEED!

From that point on, there was a constant onslaught of sexual attacks in my life; I was sexually experimenting with girls my age. It was not something I sought out, but it seemed to find me. Men my father's age played their games with me. I gave my virginity to my high school sweetheart because we said we were going to get married after graduation and have a family. We didn't. MORE ENEMY SEED!

I enlisted in the Air Force and just went from the frying pan into the fire. There, I willfully engaged in pre-marital sex because I thought it didn't matter anymore. I had many female roommates in the dormitories that were practicing lesbians; though I never engaged in that activity then, the seeds that had been planted years before, started to sprout. In spite of it all, I did meet someone in the military and we married. It was ten years before things started changing.

I started having dreams of being raped and sexual relations with my husband were becoming very difficult. It was then that I started questioning my own sexuality and recalled my previous experiences with the girls. Satan, the great deceiver, was at work.

I had just turned 38 years old when I met a woman a few years older who expressed a sexual interest in me. She pursued, I accepted. We both divorced our husbands and engaged in a lesbian relationship for two years.

You may be asking yourself what my relationship with God was at that point. Obviously, I didn't have much of one. Satan had succeeded in convincing me that God was okay with this arrangement; however, it didn't stop me from seeking God's will for my life.

At one point, I was convinced that I was to be a gay right's activist. I was a confessed lesbian, I was involved in the gay community, went to a gay church, and I listened and believed all their rhetoric and rationale for living that lifestyle. I knew we were good people; we were just misunderstood. It wasn't long, though, before the Holy Spirit touched me right in the middle of a service held in a predominantly gay church. It was as if He had lifted the veil that shrouded my view of what was really happening. THE BATTLE WAS ON!

I ended the lesbian relationship immediately and re-committed my life to The Lord. Soon after that, I met a man I believed to be sent by God and fell in love. We accepted each other regardless of our pasts (his sexual entanglements will follow in a separate testimony) and agreed to pursue God together. We didn't realize what the spiritual impact would be till much later.

That's where Pastor Marc's ministry became so crucial to our relationship. They are fully aware of Ephesians 6:12 that says, "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places." The battle for freedom became fierce. As we continued to pursue God, the sex demons assigned to us attacked even more. We had no peace in our marriage. We had the Kingdom of God in our sights, but we were in theirs.

I can't begin to tell you all that transpired in our journey, but know this; we wouldn't have come through it without God first. Secondly, without the prayers of ministers experienced in this area of warfare (those involved know who you are) we would have failed. THANK YOU from the depths of my heart.

This life experience enabled me to understand more fully why and HOW the enemy attacks us personally, in relationships and, especially, in marriage.

Do not be deceived! Seek God's truth and you WILL find it! Total freedom is yours for the asking. Numbers 23:19 states, "God is not a man that He should lie." And John 8:32 also says, "And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.

You must also know this: you have to fight for your freedom and endure to the end. God doesn't force us to choose Him. We must do that willingly. The battle is on, but the victory IS ours and it is sweet! The Lord is with you Mighty Warriors!